Divorce Commonly Sucks

My reaction was in reverse to what most kids do when they're parents get divorced. At first, of course I was upset and confused because no one was telling me anything, not even why. I didn't fully understand that this meant long term and my life was going to be changed forever. Deep down, I assumed that it would blow over and mum and dad would sort it out. But I quickly adjusted to the new routine after that and got on with it. Now that i'm adjusted to my new life, I wish i could go back and do something. When I had an excuse to be upset, get the comfort I need. Now it's like every assumes everything is ok and i'm over it but I still look at my mum with her boyfriend and my dad with his girlfriend and get upset or angry sometimes. That's why I'm so moody whenever Nigel comes for the weekend. But I guess there are lots of good things that have come of this divorce (Like my adorable baby brother and all those amazing sleepovers i had with my friends at dads house) and I do need to just GET OVER IT. But I have this fantasy of mum and dad back together and all of us on a family holiday. My friends are so lucky their families aren't broken, they don't even realise it.