Problem:

Why is mum still with Nigel??? Why is Fraser still with Danny???? Why would anyone settle for shit? Don’t even settle. My mum has changed since she’s been with Nigel- his annoying turn of phrase, unnaturally sickening small talk and mannerisms have rubbed off on her. Lately she hasn’t been much; least of all an inspiration to go get what I deserve in life SERIOUSLLY. They’re both just scared they’ll end up alone. They truly believe they’re each other’s last chance at a hand to hold when that’s all they can do. I’ll be that hand mum. I was so excited when she broke up with him. I thought I’d never have to answer the question “How was school?” again. But then I was utterly supporting whilst truly devastated when she gave him another chance. Silvia and dad have had a similar situation. He wanted to move to South London with(out us) her but she dumped him and is moving to kent or something idk but we “get to”/can only visit Javier (half bro) on weekends. Then dad turned around and said “Hey how would you feel about me and your mum getting back together?” FFFF.. What? I am actually not certain how I feel about that. Except chaotic. Tangled. WTAF. Could you have decided this sooner? Maybe before the oh yeah DIVORCE that turns out only happened because you’re both money obsessed. Of course this is all in his head, mums back with Nigel so I shouldn’t waste my thoughts debating it. I am just wishing that my parents could stop acting like minors and really mean it when they’re with someone otherwise don’t be with them. All they want is a fuck buddy to satisfy their needs- they’re like cave men. You know how when you’re younger you think everything is going to be ok, in the end. On the news you never take things seriously because you figure that SOMEONE out there--out of all the brains there are--someone will sort it out. At least I thought that way. I thought every adult had sense and wisdom, would way up every decision, would always be moral and consider everyone involved and be steps ahead of everyone else. But they’re not, at all. They let you down and sometimes is YOU that was meant to fix it.